i juz wan evrytink 2 b back normal again. )':lyk i said, yest was da weirdest day i've been thru. i was sad at one moment due 2 sum conflict n den suddenly i feel as if notink happened at da nxt moment. well, yeah i agree sumtyms i do hav mood swings n i guess yest was one of those days dat it juz happened all of a sudden. plus it happened at da wrong tym n fcuk it, evrytink juz turned out 2 b going da wrong way too. seriously, i tot tinks we going so very well btwn da 2 of us but den my mood swing strikes - at da very wrong tym. i hate it. evrytink juz cocked up.
watever it is, im reali very so sory 4 causing so much trouble yest. bcoz of me, othr pple suffer. yes i noe, im d one who's wrong here! haish... bodo sia... its lyk wtf u noe. i reali didnt ask 4 all tis 2 happen n damn it, im screwed again. its very demoralising uh wen i hafta start all over again juz bcoz of a small conflict. im back 2 square one u noe. now i hav a very huge mountain 2 climb. its lyk mepek sia! i hate it ok pple... its unfair 2 me. if only i noe all tis wld happen... argghhhh!!!
there's one tink i hate so much. dat tink is fate. if only fate was u human being, den i wld hav beaten him up 4 making me go thru all tis hard situation. but no, i cant do anytink but 2 accept fate. d only way is to juz make gd use of wat fate has 4 me. i dunno wats gonna happen 2 me now. wat else muz i go thru. hey fate, u wan 2 c me die izzit?
im trying 2 4get abt wat happened yest. hell yeah, u tink its easy wen sum1 tells u dat da game is over wen u juz abt 2 started da game? no its not ok! haish... sad sia... babi sia herman. y u sot sia yest? y ur mood swing happens at da wrong tym? hey herman, do u noe dat its a waste wen u juz started sumtink n den da nxt tink u noe its all gone? fcuk u la herman, wtf is wrong wif u yest???!!!!
i tink im going out 2 sumwhere tmr. mayb i juz nid 2 ease my mind n get tis stupid mood swings out of my chest. heart pain sia. i hate my mood swings... it juz destroys evrytink! yes, evry single tink! ):
